2017 Resolutions

This year I will do all the things.

  • Go to 50 yoga classes this year.
    • And buy a yoga mat!
    • And do yoga at home too!
    • Maybe only do yoga at home, because of save money goals.
  • Learn the violin.
  • Achieve the DMV.
    • Like, actually get my Hawai’i license.
    • But that involves going to the DMV.
      • The DMV is the worst.
    • Do I really need a Hawai’i license?
  • Take a surf lesson.
    • Or just rent a surfboard and try to surf.
    • And hopefully not drown.
  • Go scuba diving.
    • Maybe…?
    • But scuba diving is expensive.
    • 2018?
  • Go to Kaua’i.
  • Make a 4.0 my first semester of Library School.
  • Save $5000 by the end of the year.
    • Or at least open up a Savings Account.
  • Hike Pali Puka.
  • Hike Koko Head.
  • Hike to Manoa Falls.
  • Write a book this year.
    • Or at least a chapter?
      • Or maybe just an outline…
  • Read 57 books this year.
  • Practice the violin more this year.
  • Aprender más español.
  • Learn Hawaiian.
  • Weigh less than 100lbs for at least a few weeks.
    • I know, I know, it’s not healthy. “That’s too skinny!” Blah, blah, blah. But let’s be honest. When you’re a girl, that’s kind of the goal. When people think you’re so skinny they tell you to “eat a cheeseburger” or they say they’re “worried about you” that’s like, the girl dream. I just want to be too skinny for a few weeks in my life, and then I’ll go back to being an ice-cream gobbling, milkshake chugging chubster.
  • Go the the Legend of Zelda symphony orchestra performance.
  • Go see Bill Maher when he comes to Hawaii in 2017.
  • Go to more music things.
  • Learn a lot.

I know. Modest goals compared to 2016. But this year I will have less money and less time. I’m going to be working full time and be in graduate school full time. I’m going to be busy and have to stay focused on my education and career goals. And for 2017 at least, I’m staying still in Hawaii. I’m not moving again. And traveling back to the mainland or to another country is expensive. I’m going to go to Reykjavik and Zanzibar and Lascaux and San Morino and Barcelona and the Sea of Stars in the Maldives and to Fiji and Townsville in Queensland and to London and ALL the places. One day. But not in 2017
More personal, vague goals:

  • Be healthier in spirit.
  • Be more compassioanate
  • Feel safe.
  • Make friends.
  • Be more assertive and self-assured. Believe in myself, believe that I am worth something.

2016 Resolutions: Review


A year ago, I set these goals for myself for the year of 2016.

  •  Run 100 miles in 10 weeks.
    • Run 100 miles in 6 months?
    • Run 100 miles this year.
    • …run 10 miles this year.
    • Walk places.

For this goal, I didn’t meet it. There were days I ran 1 mile, there were days I ran 2 miles. I definitely ran at least 10 miles this year, but not 100 miles. Should I set this as a goal for myself for 2017? Perhaps. I think I’m just going to set a goal of run 10 miles in 1 week at least 1 week out of 2017.

  • Yoga.
    • Buy 30 yoga classes.
    • …buy 10 yoga classes.
    • Buy a yoga mat?
    • Watch a YouTube yoga video.
    • Get a yoga app?
    • Stretch a couple times this year.

I met this goal! Kind of. I bought a couple months of yoga classes and I attended around 15 yoga classes this year. I bought a yoga mat, which I left on the mainland. But don’t worry, I’m buying another yoga mat. As far as fitness goals, I have also been purchasing a lot of fitness outfits. I have two weeks’ worth of sports bras, running shorts, running tops, workout clothes, and at least a week’s worth of yoga pants.

I’m glad I set these lofty goals for myself for health and wellness, because I’ve slowly but surely been taking steps towards being more healthy. And I’m in love with yoga. It’s $100/month for yoga classes at the yoga studio next door, and guess what? It’s right above this little café that has the most amazing pitaya bowls (and they’re vegan!). I’m going to buy 6 months of classes next week to kick off the new year and I’m going to go at least five days a week for those six months. I love love love yoga. It’s amazing.

  • Save $10,000.
    • Save at least $8000.
    • Really, even saving $5000 would be amazing.

I did not meet this goal. I spent money as soon as I made it and I’ve been following that pattern. I bought a $4000 iMac. I bought a $4000 car. (That was really more like a $1000 car). I bought a $200 violin. I bought $500 worth of workout clothes. I bought more money than I care to share on pretty dresses and makeup. I bought beats headphones and a waterproof stereo. I bought an iPhone. I bought a 12″ Macbook. I bought an iPad Pro. I bought an Apple products. Most of my money now belongs to the Apple corporation.

But this year, 2017, I am going to work harder at saving. I’m going to try to save at least $5000 this year. It’s going to be nearly impossible because I’m paying back my student loans AND I’m going to graduate school to get a Masters in Library and Information Science. But I’m going to have $5000 in an actual savings account by the year 2018, goddammit.

  • Get a part-time job at a library!

I achieved this goal! I worked for New Bedford Public Libraries and I worked in Casa de Saudade Library, Lawler Library, and the Wilks Library. I loved that job more than I’ve loved any job I’ve ever had in my entire life. I loved every second of it, I couldn’t wait to go to work. I would leave work with a smile on my face saying, “I can’t believe I get paid to do this.”

I need to be a librarian. And so I am pursuing a degree in Library and Information Science. I already bought a textbook for one of my classes (that doesn’t even start until August 2017!). And I’ve been reading it and taking notes and smiling a lot. I love love love the library, and I cannot wait to work in a library again.


(My dream library. The Seattle Public Library.)

  • Apply to grad schools and PhD programs.
    • Library Science
    • Anthropology

I applied to UH Manoa graduate school for Library and Information Science and I got accepted!!!

  • Read 100 books this year.
    • Read 50 books this year…?
    • Read at least 25 books this year.

I read a lot of books this year. I don’t remember how many. But here’s a few:

Indie Games– awesome book I just read about independent games and their importance in the gaming industry. It talks about how video games are becoming an art form in their own right, similar to how movies evolved into an art form. It’s a new form of telling a story.

Pax– cute and profound story about a boy and his fox and how war devastates lives.

Blue Hope– a book written by Sylvia Earle, one of my personal heroes, a marine biologist, brilliant scientist, and adventurous aquanaut. It’s about how we can save the oceans and preserve marine life. It’s beautiful and full of wonderful, delightful photographs of the underwater world.

Fables– I re-read the entire series of comics. It’s about fairy tale creatures who live in New York City.

The Strange Library– a Haruki Murakami book. Honestly the actual story was very bizarre, but the book was so cool looking!

Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage– another Haruki Murakami book that I found in a drawer at the hotel where I work. I read it in a couple days in between phone calls when I was the phone operator. At first I started reading it out of boredom because there was nothing to do in the slow moments at work. And the book didn’t seem that interesting. It seemed bizarre like Haruki’s books typically are, but more grounded in reality than his other books. And then it got really, really interesting. I actually thought a lot about this book and want to meet someone else who has read it so I can process it.

Ready Player One– Ernest Cline. This was a re-read actually. I was part of a very fantastical book club that one of my best friends, Kristen, started and I tended to convince everyone to choose my books. I love this one. It’s all about video games! Well, video games set in a dystopian future where a young boy from the slums has to save the world. Kind of.

Broken Monsters– a book club book about a magical serial killer in Detroit. Wasn’t my favorite.

Dime– a book that very close to accurately portrays what human sex trafficking actually looks like in America. It got it wrong though. I understand that E.R. Frank is a writer and wants to be dramatic, but come on, if your purpose is to accurately portray something than do that! Don’t go off the deep end into drama about selling infant babies because that’s sexier than a 16 year old on the street making money for her pimp. That’s disgusting. People aren’t going to remember the teenagers in danger in this book, they’re going to hold onto the “selling babies” part of it. “Oh my god, human trafficking is horrible. Babies get sold on the black market.” No. That doesn’t happen. Or, well, I know, it probably does, but that’s not what most human trafficking looks like.

Undeniable– Bill Nye the Science Guy. About evolution and why it’s true, but it’s preaching to the choir because I already know it’s true.

The Rational Optimist– all about how the world is actually getting better and we’re all going to be amazing in the future.

Abundance– another book supporting this theory that the world and human quality of life is improving.

Strangers in Our Own Land– about Republicans and why poor people in Louisiana vote against their own interests. It’s actually really fascinating, but also incredibly frustrating because I just want people to be more logical.

Belle de Jour– book club book. I just don’t think she’s telling the whole truth in this book. She’s clearly been through trauma and is pretending to be full of joie de virve to fight the pain.

Fierce Medicine– Anna Forrest about her yoga practice. A little too dramatic, but I love what she’s saying about yoga being powerful and healing.

The Girl with All the Gifts– about zombies.

I read so many books this year. Bossypants, Yes, Please, The Girl with the Lower Back Tattoo, We Should All Be Feminists, Men Explain Things To Me, Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children… So many books. I definitely met this goal.

  • Learn Spanish.
    • Try to learn Spanish.
    • Read La Casa de Los Espíritus and El Orden Alfabetico and Memorias de Mis Putas Tristes.
      • En español
      • Y, también, quiero escribir un cuento en español.
    • Think about buying Rosetta Stone.
    • Don’t buy Rosetta Stone, because Saving Money goals.
    • Give up and watch Pan’s Labyrinth with subtitles.

Yo aprendí más español en el año dos mil y dies y seis. Pero tengo que aprender más español y practicar más en el año dos mil y dies y siete. Quiero leer muchos libros en español. Quiero leer cuentos de hadas! Quiero leer libros de la biblioteca.

  • Move somewhere awesome.
    • Move to Hawaii.
    • Move to Seattle.
    • Move to Champaign-Urbana.
    • Move to Zanzibar.
    • Move to Fiji.
    • Move to the Moon.

I moved to Hawaii!

  • Try to go surfing.
    • How much does it cost to go surfing?
    • Will I need to buy a surf board?
    • Maybe this should be a 2017 resolution.

I did not go surfing, but I am going to in 2017! I’m living in one of the best places to learn to surf.

  • Try to go scuba diving.
    • How much is scuba diving?
    • Another 2017 resolution, probably.

Definitely happening in 2017.

  • Write more.
    • Write 50,000 words this year.
    • Hey, if NaNoWriMo folks can write 50,000 words in one month, I sure as hell can do it in a year.

I wrote a lot, but not 50,000 words. I’m working on a book though. In 2017, I am going to finish writing my book.

  • Kiss in the rain.
    • This is probably a try it once kind of thing. It’s probably one of those things that sounds more cool/romantic/fun than it actually is.

Nope. Nope nope nope. And I’m nope-ing away from this goal.

  • Go vegan.
    • Go vegetarian?
    • Eat healthier…
    • Eat less ice cream…
    • Don’t eat ice cream every single day…
    • Go at least 1 month without eating any ice cream. Goals!
      • Does that include milkshakes?
      • But I like milkshakes.
      • I don’t like this goal.

I am vegan! As of six days ago… But still. I made it to vegan by the end of 2016!

  • Lose 5000 lbs!
    • Lose 5 lbs.
    • I’ll just skip this and go straight to a better goal: Gain 25lbs. I’ll win the New Year!
    • Learn to love myself the way I am, because I hate exercise and I love ice cream.

I gained 25lbs! I won the New Year! Haha. No. I weigh 10lbs less than I did at the beginning of the year. I’m continuing this goal though. I want to weigh 87lbs in 2017. Just for like a few days, and then pig out on a bunch of ice cream.

  • Get a pedicure.

Yep! A few actually. And a manicure.

  • Go to a spa.

I’ve been to so many spas this year! Niagara Falls spa, Oahu spa, Maui spa, and Big Island spa. I love the Maui spa. It was like… out of a movie. Like a magical enchanted spa.

  • Get a massage.

I’ve gotten 3 massages this year, at the spa.

  • See Niagara Falls.

I saw Niagara Falls! It was amazing and I went with one of my best friends Amanda Panda.

  • See the Grand Canyon.

I saw the Grand effing Canyon!!! I saw Antelope Canyon and Meteor Crater and the Vermilion Cliffs too!

  • Hug a rainbow tree.

I hugged ALL the rainbow trees!!! Hawaii!!!

  • See the giant Sequoias.

I saw the biggest Sequoia on the entire planet. I also saw the redwood forest at Muir Woods. I went to Sequoia National Park in California.

  • Visit Provincetown.

Not only did I visit Provincetown, I visited it with one of my best friends Matt who also worked at the library where I worked. It was so much fun! Matt and I also went to the Whaling Museum in New Bedford together and Matt, Kristen, and I all went to the Boston Museum of Science.

  • Go hiking on a volcano.

I went hiking on AN ACTIVE VOLCANO! I met Pele, the Hawaiian volcano goddess. Or at least, I saw where she lives. Or where people believe she lives. I saw petroglyphs and the sea gates and active lava flow. I saw all the lava! It was awesome.

I did so much more this year than just that. I went across the country. I saw the oldest cemetery in the entire country, in Massachusetts. I went to see lighthouses. I went from Portland, Maine, to Portland, Oregon. I saw NASA and touched a space shuttle that has been to the moon and back. I went to the Providence water fire. I went to the grave of Mercy Brown, a reported vampire child. I went floating down a river in Asheville with one of my best friends, Amanda R. I saw so many fireworks this year. I went back to New Orleans and ate rum chocolate chip gelato (zuppa inglese) at Brocato’s and I had a po-boy again. I went to a TARDIS bar with one of my best friends, Little Katie. We had story day at the usual place, Rue de la Course coffee shop.

I saw all the things in Arizona. I saw all the things in California. I saw the Hollywood sign with one of my best friends Adriana. We went to Hollywood and saw the stars of the movie stars on the sidewalk. We went hiking and saw the city. We went to the Los Angeles arboretum and I saw my first rainbow tree there! And a lot of peacocks. And we went to the sand dunes and danced in the desert. And I ran into the Pacific Ocean, my first steps in the Pacific!

I went to the Winchester Mystery House in San Jose! It’s been on my list forever and it was a spontaneous side adventure when I was in San Francisco. I walked across the Golden Gate Bridge. I saw Fisherman’s Wharf, the Castro, and Dolores Park. My last day there I met this really awesome guy from England named Jack who was on holiday in America. He was going to see the Grand Canyon, too.

At the Grand Canyon I also made a friend! Her name is Kelsey and we’ve been sending each other books. She is a teacher in Texas, and just as adventurous as I am.

In San Francisco, I went to Muir Woods too with a couple of my good friends, Annika and Jakki. We had so many laughs. It was such a magical, enchanted day. After the woods we went to this awesome little beach surrounded by cliffs. It was a fun hike and such a great day.

I went to Salt & Straw in Portland, the best ice cream shop I’ve ever met. And I saw Portland things, like this submarine thing (there’s a cooler submarine in New Bedford), and the downtown part with this goofy sign that points in all directions (there’s a more colorful sign like that in New Orleans). Portland library was pretty cool, too.

And then Seattle! I saw the Space Needle and I went to the Seattle Public Library, and it was love at first sight. That library is made of magic. It’s so bright, happy, creative, and colorful. I want to live there. The first level is literally called “The Living Room.” And there’s a desk that someone works at that is literally just the desk for “Book Suggestions.” I want that job! I want to be the Book Suggestions Expert!

There’s a Writer’s Room in the library too, space for people to write! Every single floor is a new adventure. I love, love, love, love, love that library so much. I want to live there. Seriously. When I get my Master’s, I am applying for a job there. I am going to work hard and I am going to work there one day! I solemnly swear.

And then I got on a plane and flew to Hawaii. And now I live here. My life is made of magic.

I know it was last year, but in 2014 I met an astronaut. And I went to Boston Calling music festival and I saw my all-time favorite band Of Monsters and Men there. I saw the Decemberists in concert, too. And Hozier, Alabama Shakes, Daughter, CHVRCHES, Walk the Moon, alt-j, and the Avett Brothers. I love music.

In 2017, I am going to see the Legend of Zelda symphony orchestra. I can’t wait!

I listened to a lot of good music in 2016 too. I discovered rap and hip-hop. I listened to a lot of Beyoncé and I loved every second of Lemonade. I am setting an intention to learn more about music this year too.

I made all my dreams come true. See, that’s the thing with resolutions. People make it like it’s a wish list. Like, Oh it’d be so cool to see the Grand Canyon! I want to have a model’s body. I want to… It’s more like, a dream of what might happen if the world was magic and wishes came true just by saying them.

But you have to work at it. If you want to do something, go do it. Don’t just wish for it and hope it jumps out at you and just happens by magic. Make it happen. Work hard for it. Fight for it. You can do it, you just have to make that choice.

And my dreams come true because I dream it, I work hard, and I grind until I own it. Bring it on, 2017!

Pele

I visited with Pele on Friday. She lives in the island of Hawai’i, what’s called the Big Island.


I stand in awe. What an incredible world, and how lucky I am that I have gotten to see so much of it in my short life.

I read the story of Pele, and forgive me for the comparison, I’m certainly no goddess, but she reminds me of me, just a bit.

Pele didn’t have a home, and she came to these islands searching for a place that could be. Learning that story sang to something in me. Everyone wants to go home. For some of us, it isn’t a place of our past but a place in our future.

I didn’t know what to offer to Pele, so I just thanked her for letting me visit her. I hope I can find home one day, too.